Published on October 26, 2022 at 2:23 p.m.
“It was a banal self-examination. I have always practiced it by reflex. This time, I felt a lump. Two days later, I had an appointment with my gynecologist. I took things very seriously. Him, a little less. After an auscultation, he explains to me that it is not serious, that at my age there is no reason to worry. For him, I was psychotic. Despite her diagnosis, this lump was floating around in my head. I see him again for a classic consultation and decide to talk to him about it again. Again, same conclusion. For him, I am too young to have cancer. It’s not even worth doing a mammogram. The following months, my breast hurts more and more. I decide to change specialists. The reception is completely different. They sent me for a mammogram and an ultrasound. The verdict is in: I have breast cancer.
“My breast has just been removed, I will soon be bald… Part of my femininity is gone”
Very quickly, everything comes together. The examinations, the protocol, the surgery. Before chemo, I had my entire breast and nipple removed. I’m just starting the first chemotherapy sessions. The question of hair came very quickly. Before starting the process, I was quickly warned that I was going to lose them. During my first session, I met women who were terrified of going bald. I am a very positive person. I like to put things into perspective. Of course, it’s not going to be easy. They just removed my breast, I’m going to be bald soon… It’s part of my femininity that flies away. But I had to do something. I had to talk about my story. I decided to take the opposite course. If I was going to lose my hair, then I needed one last hair treat. One evening, in the night, I wondered how I could both please myself while raising awareness and marking the spirit of women and young girls. That’s how I got the idea to contact Thomas Tuccinardi. I knew this hairdresser thanks to social networks. I have always loved his work. I wanted one last coloring. One last change before the big moment. I thought of Pink October, awareness campaigns and this signature color that comes back every year. So I asked him to give me a pink hair color. A first for me. I wrote to him on Instagram without really thinking he was going to reply to me. I was wrong. Thomas accepted this crazy project. When I arrived at the show, the atmosphere was special. It wasn’t like a typical date. After several hours of work, I discovered my new hair. I was too proud and very moved. Everyone was.
“My hair will grow back, and even better”
It may seem ridiculous to some, but this coloring was very symbolic for me. I have always dreamed of having long hair. When I learned of my illness, I had never had them so long. Losing your hair is heartbreaking. I had to say goodbye to them in my own way. By changing my mind, I felt too good. It was as if to say: ‘ok this situation is sad, put your little piece to keep it positive’. On a psychological level, it brought me a lot. I took a long step back. My hair will grow back, and even better. I would like to tell all the young girls who are in my situation, not to focus on this. We must try to take the opposite course. When I’m bald, I’m going to wear colorful scarves. I’m not going to let my hair define me. I did not buy wigs. I don’t want to hide my skull. I don’t want to perpetuate the taboo of a shaved head in a woman. I want to democratize the thing. I have breast cancer, I’m going to have no more hair and I’m proud to lead this fight. »